Do i love, or is it lusty amour?

Do i love or is it lusty amour?
Is this feeling just intimacy or something more?
The visions in front of my eyes are vulgar, full of gore...
Drunken eyes and melting nights galore...
And all THIS wasnt there before!

My heart used to BREATHE in days of yore
It could feel love, compassion, care and a lot more..
The heart, dat 'loved u to the core'
The paper heart, myriad pieces of which YOU tore!

And now things have turned sour
With the killing bite of feelings impure
I can sense I cant love anymore
Alas! i can't love anymore...

As i stand alone at life's shore
Trying meekly to hear its distant roar,
I take refuge in all that I used to abhor
Merely to enjoy my living hour..
To give my life-long-hour a pleasurable decor
Unknowingly making it forever dull n dour

But deep inside, true happiness I wish for ..
Wish for the smile that has gone afar..
I want the devil to walk out of my door
And let me reach my destination before my feet go sore

And now before you begin to snore
You-who has been reading these lines with anticiaption in store
Let me bring you back to the fore
And make your unabashed smile soar...
To write all this, I just let my imagination soar
And to tell you the truth, all I wanted was a person to bore!!!!!!!!!

Take care n spread smiles galore!!! :)
cares n prayers,ritu!!