Wednesday, February 24

For all the wrong reasons




She spends her nights,
Puffing away on her cigarette,
Vision clouded with the wetness of sorrow,
Sorrow, she carries in her heart.. for all the wrong reasons...


She gets out of bed every morning,
And stares down at those feet,
That carried her where she is now,
This far, at a crossroad, lost.. for all the wrong reasons...


That sweet looking face,
Hidden partially with locks falling over her eyes,
Her smile vanishing every now and then,
For she stands to fight within herself, for the rest of her life.. for all the wrong reasons....


She spends her afternoon, thinking,
...” tonight’s gonna be a good night”
She spends her happier days, fearing,
...”oh, seems a bad evening is in the offing”...


Vulnerable, to the ‘miracle’ called Love,
‘Miracle’ it is for sure,
For it made her loose her Self...
Made her loose her way, for all the wrong reasons.....

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Love, that she found, may be true,
But how could it snatch the composure, the strength,
Out of her mind,
And bring her close to wishing she were dead...?



Love, is a strength in itself,
It confers greater abilities in us,
Just that, she can’t blame anyone, gotta blame herself,
For messing with her own mind while treading on those roads of life.....
And let her feet carry her to that crossroad, for all the wrong reasons.......



Tuesday, February 23

Let Go.....




I want it back
The capability to forgive,
Forget,
And move on...


I used to be strong,
Able enough, to let go...
But today, I am weak, in my heart,
And so I can’t fight loss...
It hurts so much,
To have met people,
Who make me feel used,
And leave nothing for me to live by...



Those people that come,
And go; as if I were a train station...
Those, that don’t realize what they do,
To my fragile soul...
They say, "We know you"...
They say, "We care about you"...
Lies! coz, no sooner will they say goodbye,
And put all blame on me...


So,
I want it back,
The capability to STILL "be there when I am needed",
And let go all the rancor, the frustration, the anger...
And forgive, forget, and move on...



Oh! yes, I want it back,
My strength; my coldness..
My cares, laced with seeming un-involvement,
I want to hide my honest love,
Want my disguise back,
Want that layer of thick skin back...


BACK!


Just so that I could forgive,
Forget,
And move on....